Sleepless
well, i cant fall aslp... so i decided to work on the story that i have left it for a long long time... as i work on the story, a sense of nostalgic came washing over me.
it made me think back on the day that i have met the old man, the old man's daughter and most importantly, it made me think of my dad...
I know i sound like an emo freak! but duh, hell im not... its jus tat, at this kind of time, when u are all alone, listening to the sounds of the nite, feelings that u don feel normally, will kinda creep up...
to a lot of pple, im a happy go lucky guy. a guy who got no cares, no worries and doesnt give 2 hoots abt things.
to some pple, im someone who is strong, can be depended on as a pillar when things doesnt turn right.
to some minority, im someone who can carry the whole world on my shoulders.
Strong as hell, carefree, solid front, as if nothing in the world will bring me down...
all these, all of these, are jus one part of me. One side...
im one hell of a sentimental freak... i do cry, although very very little pple has seen tat... (cos i only cry in VERY VERY RARE OCCASIONS!)
im a softie... i cannot do nothing when i see an elder selling tissues, or setting up a small stall selling things jus to make a living.... trust me, i ever paid $4 for 2 packets of tissues..
im an idiot when it comes to the affairs of the heart... i think tats widely known? i always give 101% to any relationship... hell yea, who cares abt it anyway...
im weak, seriously weak... i have always hope i can always find someone who i can depend on, lean on, but it seems tat up to now, i still don have one?
i have been struggling to walk on the path of life, alone. I have once, found someone who is willing to walk the road with me, but things don turn out right in the end...
i am a court jester, a clown, an entertainer, a comedian. but does anyone knows that pple like us actually yearn to have someone ard us? we brought laughter to pple ard us, but at our own expenses... how many of them know abt it? and actually appreciate it?
today, dolphin ask me, how come im working so hard... i told her its bcos i wan to siam match making sessions... which is half true... the other half, is not to allow feelings like this to creep on me...
cos if it happens, wat i might do is jus to grab de person i really like and smooch her! and then tell her tat i like her... okie the word 'like' is a bit weak, maybe smooch liao say 'I love you'?
guess she might slap me ba? but the thing is, the 'she' has not appear yet... so i cant jus grab anyone and smooch... i will get prosecuted!
and hell yea, I AM FREAKING SHY DE LA... dotz... this is no joke de... really... >_<
hell, this is one emotional post... dotz... totally wayward from my usual self...
it made me think back on the day that i have met the old man, the old man's daughter and most importantly, it made me think of my dad...
I know i sound like an emo freak! but duh, hell im not... its jus tat, at this kind of time, when u are all alone, listening to the sounds of the nite, feelings that u don feel normally, will kinda creep up...
to a lot of pple, im a happy go lucky guy. a guy who got no cares, no worries and doesnt give 2 hoots abt things.
to some pple, im someone who is strong, can be depended on as a pillar when things doesnt turn right.
to some minority, im someone who can carry the whole world on my shoulders.
Strong as hell, carefree, solid front, as if nothing in the world will bring me down...
all these, all of these, are jus one part of me. One side...
im one hell of a sentimental freak... i do cry, although very very little pple has seen tat... (cos i only cry in VERY VERY RARE OCCASIONS!)
im a softie... i cannot do nothing when i see an elder selling tissues, or setting up a small stall selling things jus to make a living.... trust me, i ever paid $4 for 2 packets of tissues..
im an idiot when it comes to the affairs of the heart... i think tats widely known? i always give 101% to any relationship... hell yea, who cares abt it anyway...
im weak, seriously weak... i have always hope i can always find someone who i can depend on, lean on, but it seems tat up to now, i still don have one?
i have been struggling to walk on the path of life, alone. I have once, found someone who is willing to walk the road with me, but things don turn out right in the end...
i am a court jester, a clown, an entertainer, a comedian. but does anyone knows that pple like us actually yearn to have someone ard us? we brought laughter to pple ard us, but at our own expenses... how many of them know abt it? and actually appreciate it?
today, dolphin ask me, how come im working so hard... i told her its bcos i wan to siam match making sessions... which is half true... the other half, is not to allow feelings like this to creep on me...
cos if it happens, wat i might do is jus to grab de person i really like and smooch her! and then tell her tat i like her... okie the word 'like' is a bit weak, maybe smooch liao say 'I love you'?
guess she might slap me ba? but the thing is, the 'she' has not appear yet... so i cant jus grab anyone and smooch... i will get prosecuted!
and hell yea, I AM FREAKING SHY DE LA... dotz... this is no joke de... really... >_<
hell, this is one emotional post... dotz... totally wayward from my usual self...
posted by ghostie | 4:58 AM
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