ICT

Jus came back from 2 days Bn day. It was PAINFUL. not physcially but mentally... its worse than being in a meeting at work and thats for the 1st day.

2nd day wasnt so bad. thats when the men starts to come in. we had a Q&A session between the men and the commanders. The men decided to question me about the out pro for last ICT. why we were the last.

I explained them in details and they accepted it. The day whizzed by and we are allowed to book out. Fauzi gave me a lift home.

On the way home, the subject of the company was being brought up. 

I asked him a very simple question. Does the men hate me as i have always been the devil. Fauzi looked at me in surprise then ask me why do i think tat way. 

I told him i jus had a feeling abt it. He laughed and says that i have gotten it all wrong. he told me tat the men and commanders were actually happy that im the CSM instead of the others. (Fauzi is the 2nd in command) 

He has talked to men and junior commanders and he told me what de men thought.

The men understand my situation and they had put themselves in my shoes. They know the reason why i have to be the devil and be so strict with them. they know the reason why i have to make them do so much and make them do so much drills.

they know why i have to push them so much despite the fact that its jus reservice. 

When they saw my company tag changed to Alpha, they asked me why am i not in HQ anymore. i told them that HQ don like me and so they transferred me to Alpha. I told them then Fauzi would then become the new CSM. 

It was then when i realized that how much control and command i have over the men. One of men told me straight in the face that if the transfer is true, then HQ will fall cos they know Fauzi cannot control them. 

They were actually happy to have me as their CSM. 

LOL